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Sometimes things get me down.
Things I hate...

-- I hate that we're on Yale/New Haven Children's Hospital's email list. I won't say more than that.

-- I hate that Boo has a list of Dr.'s and specialists as long as my arm... and I know all their names and most of their phone numbers by heart.

-- I hate that any week we don't have a Dr.'s appt. is a good week... and they are pretty rare.

-- I hate how people look at Boo sometimes.

-- I hate that people judge us because of the size of our family.

-- I hate that it's hard to find time for everything and everyone... and so a lot of things slide. I hope it's the unimportant things we're letting slide.

-- I hate that next week we have to get new foot/leg braces for Boo.

-- I hate his braces.

-- I hate the marks they leave all over his little legs.

-- I hate that he cries when he sees us going to get them.

-- I hate that last week they made his legs bleed.

-- I hate that I have to be the bad guy and put them on him when I probably hate them almost as much as he does.

-- I hate that with shorts weather upon us people will see them more and make more judgments about Boo.

-- I hate that they're SO hot and he's going to have to endure them all summer.

-- I hate that I can't take away all his pain and all his problems and make his life perfect.

-- Lately I really hate that we don't have money. It never used to bother, but lately it's getting in the way and that sucks.

-- I'm hating myself a little bit lately too. Back to the old guilt. It'll go away in time, it always does. I'm telling myself it's because I'm hormonal.

Blech. Just blech. I need some sleep.